The night before the wedding day ni Lalake A at ni Babae.
Si Lalake B, sa bahay ni Babae, may nalamang katotohanan kay Lalake A from the parents. Nasaktan. Dahil ilang taon niyang inisip na siya ang umiwan kay Lalake A kaya guilty sa maraming bagay. Kinuha niya ang mga gamit niya sa kwarto at planong umalis. Dumating si Lalake A. Hinarang si Lalake B. Gustong magpaliwanag.
Lalake A:I want to explain. Lalake B:You don't need to. Lalake A:But I want to. Lalake B:It doesn't matter anymore. Lalake A:I did it because I don't want to hurt you. Lalake B:All those time, I was carrying the biggest guilt of leaving you.
After nang mahabang sagutan at sumbatan...
Lalake A:I still love you...
Lalake A kissed Lalake B. The kissing continued outside the room. Then biglang dumating si Babae. Nahuli sa akto si Lalake A at si Lalake B naghahalikan. Natulala. She didn't know what to do. All she said was...
Babae:I just need to get my wedding shoes. Sorry. Excuse me...
Tulala si Lalake A at si Lalake B. Hindi naka-imik. Hindi nakapagsalita. Bumalik si Babae. Bitbit ang wedding shoes. Hawak nang mahigpit. Tahimik pa rin si Lalake A at si Lalake B. Then Babae came to her senses and said...
Babae:Let's talk. The wedding is set tomorrow. We need to discuss this...
Si Lalake A, si Babae, at si Lalake B nasa loob nang isang room. Nagkaroon nang malaking paliwanagan from Lalake A at Lalake B. Si Lalake B, bilang bisita sa bahay nila, kabadong kabado. He knows he made a big mess. He was expecting Babae to be hysterical. To his surprise, she was just sitting on the bed, very calm, not even crying nor shouting. Si Lalake A at si Lalake B, nagpapalitan nang lakad.
Lalake B:This is not what you think. This is not why I'm here.
Nakatingin lang sa kanya si Babae.Pinagpapawisan nang malamig si Lalake B.
Lalake B:I don't even know why I was invited here. Babae:I invited you. Lalake A & B:You? Babae:I invited you for some answers. Lalake B:Answers to what? Babae:To answer the vague part of lalake A.
Nilahad ni Babae lahat nang naging balakin niya sa pag-imbita kay Lalake B. She had some weird thoughts daw everytime she looks at the picture of the two of them, and she feels different whenever Lalake A makes kwento of Lalake B. So she wanted to confirm something. Something she was afraid to ask nor confront Lalake B.
And she found the answers. Right before the day of their wedding. She accepted the truth. That her groom-to-be is actually in-love with a guy. Then she stood up. With head held high. And approached Lalake A.
Babae:If there is any possibility that you'll gonna leave me for a man, I want it to be now...
Then sabay tingin kay Lalake B.
Babae:And I want that man to be you...
Umalis si Babae sa room. Iniwan niya si Lalake A at si Lalake B dala dala ang katotohanan. She went inside her room. Nagkulong. Pero walang narinig na kahit anong iyak o hagulgol. Si Lalake A at si Lalake B, nakaramdam nang matinding kalayaan sa parehong nararamdaman nila sa isa't isa. Nagkulong sila sa kuwarto buong gabi.
The Wedding Day of Lalake A at ni Babae.
Nasa simbahan na lahat nang bisita. Naghihintay na sa kasal. Dumating na si Lalake A, kasama at sakay sa sasakyan si Lalake B. Nakabihis. Pormado. Nagkatinginan nang malalim bago pumasok sa simbahan. Naka-abang na lahat.
Pero maya-maya, dumating din si Babae. Suot ang Wedding gown. Nag-martsa papuntang unahan, escorted by her dad. Sinimulan ang seremonyas. Pagsanib sa unahan...
Lalake A:I thought you're not coming. Babae:At least I get to wear this beautiful wedding dress.
Nagtanong ang pari. Kung meron daw tumututol sa kasal. Nagkatinginan uli si Lalake A at si Lalake B. After a moment of silence, maya-maya, nagtaas nang kamay si Babae.
Babae:I don't want to marry this guy.
Nagulat ang buong simbahan.
Lalake A:You see this guy (akbay kay Lalake B). Some of you know him. He's my bestfriend. He's my supporter. He's my guide. And...
He is my first love.
Shocked ang lahat. Ang parents ni Babae. Kahit ang parents ni Lalake A. Pati mga guy friends ni Lalake A. Ang pari, napa-nganga sa gulat. Napuno nang katahimikan saglit ang buong simbahan sa nangyayari.
Lalake A:I realized it, as much as I wondered about myself that I don't love men, I just love Lalake B. Lalake B:And I finally realize that he's not the same person I've been fixate with all these years. Last night, he was a friend who's about to marry another friend of mine. Lalake A:(hawak sa kamay ni Babae) Whatever happens, thanks for helping me put that to rest.
Hindi na halos makagalaw ang lahat nang tao sa loob nang simbahan sa gulat sa pangyayari.
Babae:Ayoko na nang kasal. There's too much pressure on it. Hindi ito ang gusto ko. I don't need any papers to sign. I don't need a marriage. I wanna get a commitment. From me to you. And you to me. Forever. Nothing more. And absolutely nothing less. Lalake A:So what do you say? Babae:I do. Lalake A:I do.
They kissed each other, and vowed love for each other, although not under the matrimony process. Umalis si Lalake B. Halong saya at lungkot. Pero alam niya na ginawa niya ang tama.
After the couple left the church, Lalake B immediately went to his car, ready to leave everything, and move on to his life, and forget the greatest love he ever had. Suddenly, the mom of Lalake A called him and approach him and said...
Mom:Right under my nose Lalake B. I never knew it.
Tulala lang si Lalake B. Nakahanda sa ano mang sasabihin sa kanya. Pero nagulat siya nang niyakap siya nang mahigpit.
Mom:You have to promise me. That you should not disappear again. He's not the only one who misses you. I will always treat you as a mother's son...
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Silence..
Silence..
Silence..
This is the craziest wedding ever!!!
Hindi na kailangan pang bigyan pangalan si Babae, si Lalake A at si Lalake B. May mga pangyayari talaga sa buhay na di mo inaasahan na mangyayari pero mangyayari talaga. It will catch you. It will surprise you. It will even make you insane. But what matter's most is that, you do the right thing at the end of it. Life is not about to live full of regrets of the wrong things you've done.
There will be sad things to come. But it is the choice to do the right thing that will somehow make you happy in the end. Sorrow and despair maybe for now, but there will always be a rainbow at the end of the storm. Mali man sa tingin mo ang naging desisyon ni Lalake B, pero yun ang choice na ginawa niya for his love for Lalake A at Babae.
It was the invitational premiere screening of Little Boy Big Boy at Robinson's Galleria. It's the 4th film of the Altarejos and Bonife tandem under the Beyond the Box Productions. After the success of the 3 indie films they made that tackled about different homosexual perspectives, they have given the public another story to watch. I was pleased to be one of the first few people to see this film. And indeed, it's a good movie to watch.
It was a feel-good movie. A light story that actually has a lot of sense in different perspectives. What I liked about the film was that, the movie did not promise anything big in the beginning. So it ended up according to your expectation without regret. It was a realistic story that evolved in a normal gay set-up in terms of relationships, meet-ups, sex and involving people around you. And that I mean of the little boy in the cast.
I really thought that the little boy was the kid of Paolo Rivero in the movie, that's why it attracted a single dad like me. That was my impression in the trailer. But I was wrong when I watched it. The boy just entered in to his life when his girl friend left for hongkong to meet up a guy and left her son to him for a few weeks. That is where the story began. The life of a big boy with a little boy.
I like the honesty of the story. It teaches you that homosexuality is not a lie. It is not something that you should hide, that you should not be ashamed of. It is something to be told, to anyone, especially to the innocent ones. I like how Paolo explained this to the kid. Not controversial and not vulgar. How lovely it was to see how easy for a little boy to accept the gay truth compare to adults nowadays. How I imagine a world so easy for PLUs when acceptance is just like that.
It was an eye-opener for me also seeing an orgy session in the film, which I was told that in real situations of sexual adventures, that's how it is being done. I never experienced that and I barely meet people who does activities such as that. It never turned out to be a lustful or titillating scene as they have injected humor during the session thru a payatot and a fat guy doing comic scenes. I swear, that really made me laugh.
For a romantic TL, the best part of the movie, and yes, I have to admit the "kilig experience", were the cheesy scenes of the film. Yes, they have. And what impressed me was that, it was done artistically. They used regular lines, small acting, but nice set-up and scoring which made it look so real and what really happens in real life. That I think is the part where a lot of PLUs have related themselves to the movie. It did not turn out to be a trying hard scene.
That is what I like in the movie. It captures you. It makes you think. It makes you realize things. It allows you to participate emotionally and mentally. It gives you a big screen of your own lines, and somehow, a scene of your own life. I will not deny the fact that there were scenes I wished the scoring was not that loud, and I can also say it was not a heavy movie as Antonio and Parola. But the LB/BB movie is a good treat for everyone.
I am assuming that the movie was shot in the house of the director. I remember seeing it in his partner's blogsite. But anyways, another assumption I'd like to make is that, how the movie was executed by the director is a reflection of how he is in his life in terms of relationship. The way scenes were captured comes from deep experience in love. That's why it translated in a realistic manner.
I was touched how the director thanked his partner (Mark Xander) as part of the success of this movie making before the film started during his speech. Sweet! And the translation of a continous strong partnership of the director and the writer translates sensible films in their list. Looking forward to the next film they announced during the premiere. Another one to watch.
Lastly, on a personal note, 3 things in the movie that made me relate so much to it:
(1) The cavite location of Douglas Robinson where he was asked by Paolo where does he live. I remember my ex who was from cavite as well. And the driving scene where Paolo was willing to drive so he can spend time with Douglas. I have related to that. Hehe.
(2) The strong accent of Douglas where I remember another ex of mine. The accent that never did matter in the relationship. That made me miss him. I'm not so sure though if it was the real accent of Douglas (lex, can you clarify?)
(3) The Paolo and the little boy scene where he cried because the little boy is about to leave him. The lines he said was similar to some lines I mentioned to my daughter when she left. And that gave me tears in my eyes and a tap on my shoulder from my friend Jze.
I wanna thank Lex for the tickets. If not by him, I won't be able to see this masterpiece they have created. Kudos for another good film. And watch out for the release of this film in theatres soon. Let us support this one good movie especially made for us PLUs. And have another Altarejos/Bonife experience...
After nang isang malaking gastusan para kay Khenzo, he's now back in his track and ready to rumble (ano na, wrestling?!). I'm happy that I'm back driving. Although ang bulsa ko ay hindi masyado naging happy, hehe, masaya na rin ako't balik driving uli. Iba pa rin talaga ang nabibigay na comfort nang sasakyan. Hay! I love my Khenzo. Hehe.
Pinapalitan ko ang brake pad sa unahan. Buti yung sa likod, ayos pa. Bawas sa gastos. Nagpa-change oil na rin ako. Pina-ayos ko din ang fan belt. OMG! Is this me? Ang taong walang kahilig hilig sa sasakyan noon, ngayon, may alam na kahit papano sa sasakyan. Nakakabaliw. Who would've thought I'd get in to this point. Ang saya!
But nevertheless, I'm glad that I'm all set with all of my agenda this coming days. My plans of seeing people in the past to give way to a healthy memory is all set. Manila. Pampanga. Batangas. Places I will visit in the coming days. I am excited though to drive alone and be close to nature in Batangas. I am excited to see people I have never seen for a long time tomorrow and next week. I am excited to go back to the gym for work-out.
All of these things won't happen if without Khenzo. Siya lang ang kasa-kasama ko sa mga ganitong lakad at siya lang ang makakapagdala sa akin doon. Susulitin ko. Ie-enjoy ko ang mga pagkakataong ito. Dahil pag dumating ang araw na may kasakay na ako sa tabi ko, wala nang alone moments. This is it. The kind of rest I have been longing. It's time to take the wheels of Khenzo and explore what lies ahead...
Tricycle from village to United Area (labasan). 8pesos ang bayad. Jeep from Labasan to Alabang. 10pesos ang bayad. Van from Northgate Terminal sa Alabang hanggang office. 10pesos ang bayad. Nasa office na ako.
Jeep from kanto nang Northgate to Alabang Market. 7.50pesos ang bayad. Jeep from Alabang to San Pedro. 10pesos ang bayad. Tricycle from United to our village. 25pesos ang bayad dahil special. Nasa bahay na ako.
P70.50 ang total nang transportation allowance.
Yan ang kwento nang aking byaheng commute. Yes! 2nd day ko nang nagko-commute uli after 10months of driving Khenzo. Why? Si Khenzo, nag-iinarte. Parang amo niya, may sakit. Ang break pad (according to Kate and Ka-ye) eh may diperensya na. Mahina nang humatak. Kaya si TL, mega-commute. Buti na lang hindi na masyado nag-uulan. Hindi masyadong hassle. Nakakatuwa din ang pakiramdam kahit papano.
Siyempre, for pre-cautionary measure, I decided not to bring Khenzo for the meantime hanggang mapa-ayos ko. Well, actually, mamaya ko na papa-ayos. Kasi sweldo na. Haha. Okay pa naman siya. Kahit papano, may naihahatak pang break pero dahil di yun safe para sa akin, lalo na mahilig akong sumingit, hindi ko na dinala. Sakto namang 5 hours shift lang yung 2 days na commute ko. Sana, maayos na siya mamaya at magamit na uli.Nakaka-miss din!
Masaklap lang, another gastos na naman. Hindi ko lang pinaparinig kay Khenzo. Baka magtampo at nagre-reklamo akong gastusan ko siya. Hay! Goodluck sa akin. Andami pa namang bills. Kung pwede nga lang magbenta nang laman para madami akong pera, gagawin ko. Kasi hindi ako gwapo. Wag na lang. Haha. Just kidding.
In fairness, nakaka-aliw talaga din yung pakiramdam na nagko-commute pumasok. Humbling experience, especially when you have a car na. I remember how I mastered some of the things pagdating sa pag-commute. Eversince, commute ako. Nung nag-aaral hanggang sa nagta-trabaho na. And I want to share those. Tumawa na kayo o mainis na kayo pero ito talaga ang totoo. Hehe.
- Pag sumasakay ako nang tricycle, I make sure sa loob ako uupo. Hindi pwede sa likod tabi nang driver. At kailangan din sa right side ako naka-upo sa loob, hindi sa kaliwa. Bakit? Kasi walang tama nang hangin. Magugulo ang buhok ko. Hehe.
- Pag sumasakay ako nang jeep, I make sure sa unahan ako uupo. Hindi pwede sa likuran. At kailangan din sa right side ako naka-upo sa unahan. Bakit? Aside from walang tama nang hangin at di magugulo ang buhok ko, I enjoy the side mirror. SALAMINgkero kasi ako. Hehe. At bakit ayaw ko sa likuran? Ayoko kasi nag-aabot nang mga bayad nang tao. At pag pumara, hindi na kailangan sumigaw. At pag bumaba, andali-dali lang. Hehe.
- Pag sumasakay ako nang bus, I make sure sa may bintana side ako uupo. Hindi pwede sa gitna o sa gilid na gitna nang bus. Bakit? Gusto ko kasi itinututok ko sa akin ang aircon at may view ako sa bintana. Bawal din ang ordinary bus. Well of course, exempted na yung mga "wala ka nang choice" moments.
Yan ang mga policies ko sa pagko-commute. Pinag-isipan at pinag-aralan ko yan dati. Ang hanging pampagulo nang buhok, ang mga nakaka-iritang pasahero, ang pag-abot nang mga bayad, ang siksikan sa pag-upo, ang aircon, at kung ano-ano pa. Minsan nga, nagpapalagpas talaga ako nang jeep or tricycle basta may naka-upo na sa gusto kong pwesto. Maghihintay talaga ako. For the sake of the buhok. Hehe.
Siyempre, iba na ang policy ko pag may kasama o kasabay. Sinusunod ko lang ang policies na yan pag ako lang mag-isa or madaling ma-convince yung kasama. Hehe. At siyempre, when I do travel adventure, wala na munang policies. Back-packer mode muna. Laging may dalang sumbrero. Hehe. Kung kilala mo ako at napa "ahhh, kaya pala" ikaw, yun na yun. Hehe.
Last Monday, we had our Chocolate Party which was hosted by my R&R Council during our team meeting. This was their month-ender event for the month and we have invited a few guests to join the fun celebration. Our Employee Relations Manager April and my boss Chi joined us, together with a co-leader Drew. They have witnessed the crazy way of us celebrating things and having fun. And it was actually a success.
In terms of food, each council was asked to prepare something chocolate and sweet for the said party. It was a chocolate overload and everyone just had a sugar rush after feasting with the food in the table. Food became the fist agenda, which was intentionally done so to hype up the energy of everyone for the games.
We had chocolate balls unwrapping and eating game, cupcake eating game, and the ever famous Hephep Hooray (which is now becoming a favorite past time activity of the team, hehe). The 6th floor pantry was filled with overflowing fun and laughter. Everyone was just screaming, laughing out loud, jumping, and we all looked like we are inside a mental facility. Haha.
After the games, R&R Council gave some special awards recognizing sweet attitudes co-relating to some famous chocolates. I find it very creative. Prior to the party, they gave out some surveys which everyone answered to know who is the most sweet, fruity, milky, and a mix of everything in the team. And the awardees are Drey, Roxee, Yron, Raech and Eric.
Our ERM was so overwhelmed with the experience and she even emailed all the leaders that she supports, even her boss, about what she witnessed. She was actually prepared for that event as she brought a camera for pictures also. And so we love her for that. Hehe. For the R&R Council, congratulations for the party and for all the activities you hosted for the month of July. Thanks for all the engagement projects!!!
I am now turning my wheel towards having a healthy lifestyle, as instructed by my Doctor. I have been very sick lately and my body is acting very very abnormal, having intense headache, random palpitation, sudden fever and poor eyesight, weak muscles, high blood pressure and low memory. Even myself doesn't understand what's been going on with my body. That is really not so me. And I can't take the fact that I'm becoming a sicky guy. Nooooooo!!!!!!
That's why I was recommended to take a full rest to observe where my body is really reacting. If it's from work stress, internal body failure, lack of sleep, too much thinking, hereditary malfunction, etc. I am being forced to take one week leave to give way for this observation. I apologize if I can't disclose the exact findings about my current health condition. The scary part here is that, they will check if I'm still fit for a night job. Damn it! I can't let this happen.
After a lifestyle test that was conducted to see if I'm having a healthy one or not, I am determined to really have a good one. I was told to be very picky now with what I want to have in my life. Picking the right diet, the right hobbies, the right work, the right friends, the right environment, etc. All about making your new life. I actually enjoyed the session. It made me realize a lot.
So I am taking a one week leave next week to follow the instruction of my doctor. I plan to be very strict with my diet. I plan to change my work-out program to focus more on what I need. I plan to inquire about Photography classes so I can have a new hobby. I plan to re-visit my friends list and see who are those that I should keep and who are those that has been giving me so much stress so I may stay away from them.
I plan to visit Batangas and Pampanga to see people I miss and have a different environment even for a day. I plan to spend time with myself by traveling alone which I have never done for the longest time. I plan to visit some beautiful churches that I used to go to and offer some prayers and have a relaxing spiritual retreat. I plan to watch more DVD movies and spend a few time writing about good stuff in my blog. I plan to clean my room.
I plan to do all of these things just to improve my health condition. And I am determined to do it. I have embraced this life changing moment as I want to live this gift called life. I am going to sacrifice a lot for the benefit of my health. Yes, I am scared, but I found enough strength from God which I know will guide me throughout this journey...
I will rest from work. I will rest from stress. I will rest from pretending to be okay and strong. I will rest from being a wall that can be leaned on. I will rest from listening to problems. I will rest from energizing spirits. I will rest from taking responsibilities of others. I will rest from understanding excuses. I will rest from defending people. I will rest from managing the house construction. I will rest for one week. A time to re-charge and be strong again...
It's a "For Me" agenda next week. I got to be strong and be back in the game...
Addiction is what I call it. I'm becoming a fan. Jollibee's Amazing Aloha is such a good treat for TL. I so love this burger for some reason. Wala na akong alam order-in sa Jollibee kundi itong masarap na burger nila. It's the fusion of the pineapple, bacon, lettuce, cheese, dressing, beef patties and the buns. Sobrang busog ka na pagkatapos mong kainin nang buo. Mabigat na sa tiyan. Thank you Jollibbee for this burger!!! Hehe.
At ganyan din ang hanap ko sa isang guy. Parang Amazing Aloha lang...
Gusto ko nang matapang na parang bacon, crispy, hindi madaling tibagin. Gusto ko nang sweet na parang pineapple slice, lalanggamin ako. Gusto ko nang may sense of fashion kahit papano na parang lettuce, may konting palamuti. Gusto ko nang romantic na parang cheese, cheesy. Gusto ko nang malaman na parang beef, sounds like buff. Gusto ko nang may random mood na parang dressing, para may mix of everything. At gusto ko nang malambot ang puso na parang buns, may maayos na pagkatao. Hehe.
Hihintayin ko si Jollibee na i-deliver sa akin ang right Amazing Aloha nang buhay ko. Gusto ko bitbit niya gamit ang maliit niyang pakpak at mabigat niyang katawan sa pag-deliver sa akin (cmon, imagine it). Hehe. Kakagutom. Magjo-jollibee na nga muna ako ngayon. Baka nandun si right guy, kumakain din nang Amazing Aloha. Haha. Bye!!!
Remember that picture I posted in my previous entry??? The last picture of the soon to be mommies in my team according to who got pregnant first (starting from Ka-ye from the left), and the entry about finally giving birth to their babies, becoming a new mom, showing the pictures of their babies in different occasions, and my desire to have one gathering with them all. Well, it finally came true...
Tadan!!!! Them again, on the same shot, same position, but this time, with their little angels. It was a dream come true for a feeling tatay nang mga anak nila last work offs ko. Hehe. They are all so adorable and coot. I arranged a get-together for the newly moms together with their babies sa unit nang tita ni Hazel sa The Manor sa Southwoods. It was the first time for Baby Gab, Baby Sophie and Baby Uno to meet all together. Ang saya!
This meeting was very overwhelming. Nakakaiyak kasi you've seen them got pregnant, carried their babies for 9 months, and some of them struggled a lot, even causing to lose their job, but now, you're seeing them blooming with so much joy and happiness because of the delight of their one and only angel. Pare-pareho silang first time moms kaya pare-pareho nang experience.
Of course, my baby Rhionna (or we call her not-not as her nickname, hehe), my inaanak, the ate of the 3 angels was there too. Kaya apat na babies ang kasama namin that day. Actually, I picked up the Pobrero Sisters (Hazel, Gretel and Malik. Grey is absent) sa house nila Hazel nang friday night. Mga 11:00pm na yun. Kami ang nauna sa The Manor. Tambay lang. Overnight Gimmick. Pig-out. DVD Marathon lang.
Ramdam ko talagang Pobrero minsan ang apelyido ko. Hehe. Sobrang close ko sa pamilyang ito, lalo na sa mga kapatid ni Hazel. Masarap silang kasama. Hindi ka mababagot. At hindi ka maiilang. Mga totoong tao. Dapat kasama din si Raech at Ash sa tambay na ito, pero drawing. Drawing!!! Hehe.
I will not forget July 25, 2009. Ako magkukuwento sa mga batang ito paglaki nila na sa araw na yun eh unang nagkita-kita silang tatlo. Coot coot! At isa pang coot na nangyari nung araw na yun eh nung nililigawan ni Baby Gab si Baby Sophie. Yes, bata pa lang, may potential nang babaero itong si Baby Gab. At hot chick si Baby Sophie na may potential maging Heartbreaker paglaki. Hehe. At si Baby Uno, may potential maging Dedma. Watch the video...
Coot nila di ba. Saya-saya. Hay! Sana maulit ito. Nare-relax akong makita silang tatlo, plus not-not. But over-all, I'm happy na lumalaking malusog na mga babies sila. Hiling ko lagi yun tuwing nagsisimba ako. Mahal na mahal ko itong mga batang ito. Of course, future ninong nila ako. Excited ako. Maaga pa lang, ginagampanan ko na ang aking tungkulin. Hehe.
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