Next Level

Mixed emotions. That's what I can say. For 3 months of getting to know each other, we have reached the point where we decided to take it to the next level. Not yet in to a relationship, but getting to know more each other on a different level. I admit, as I must, that he got my attention so well. For some reason, I don't even know too why I got hooked by him. What I just know now is that, he is already part of my system.

I look for his text when I wake up. I see myself caring, worrying, thinking about him. I can't last a day without a conversation with him. I miss him all the time. The initial stages of TL with love, signs of falling in with someone. I keep on denying. To my self, to a few friends. I dunno. What I just know now is that I am happy, I am enjoying it, and I am mentally committed to him already. For some reason, I find myself contented with him.

There are many things I like about him. Things I have not seen from a few guys I have dated with in the past. And there are also many weird reasons (again) why some could be shocked about this that's why I'm taking it slowly but surely (and keeping it discreet. hehe). Am I sure about him already? Not yet. That's why no telling for now. But I am committed to know if he is really the next one. If not, continue life, move on. If yes, great!!!

I easily get in to a relationship before after my gut tells me he is the next one. This gut that I have been following has given me 8 relationships, experiences and memories that I will always keep. Although there are few bad moments, I still feel no regrets. I always know that in love, you will always learn great and not so great things. It's part of the process. It's part of growing as a person. So no regrets.

I have been exclusive with Mystery Guy for the last 3 months. For the weirdest part of it again, even if I am not yet attached, I find myself like I am for losing all the energy of meeting others. I found myself contented and happy already, so why need to go to the sea and get some fish. It gave a balance to my life. Happy career, happy family, happy new selected friends, happy me and happy heart. All is happy. That's why all is well. (except for a not so happy health. hehe)

I wish my self all the luck. I really do. In taking this next level, it freaks me out. I swear. It's going to be a scary but exciting and fun part but I think, I am ready. I've given myself enough time to get in to this point. And so I must do it. I think I also have to know now if this is going somewhere, or just a blissful moment given to me so I can be happy for a moment. I don't know. We'll see...