The Muslim Curse

Does this guy look familiar to you? Even if you only see his back? Oh well, wala naman talagang relevance yung tanong ko. Gusto ko lang nang picture that will not show his face. Hehe. But I'm pretty sure a few of you knows this guy. Yeah, this picture was taken in my room way back months ago. He is my ex. The one I fell in love with after Pax. Let's just call him "Murano"

I had relationships but not all of them eh nainlove ako nang bonggang-bongga. With him, he was the second guy I fell in love with. Minahal ko siya di dahil sa maganda niyang katawan kundi sa tindi nang pag-aasiksao at pagmamahal niya. We still communicate up to now. But we don't see each other anymore. There were invites, but I'm scared to see him. TL got hurt. I have moved on. Don't wanna go back and remember the feeling.

Anyways, the entry is not about that. The other day, when I was waiting for nathan's text (but nothing came), I was browsing my friendster when I saw new pictures uploaded by Murano. Napa-shet na lang ako kasi mga bagong sexy pics ang inupload niya. Mas yummy lalo siya ngayon. Hmm...

So I called him para mangamusta, which was my only purpose of calling. But it ended up on a good-long conversation. He called me instead sa landline para non-expensive. Kamustahan. And of course, his non-stop spiel of his feeling towards me. Na madami na daw akong pinalit, kung sino sino daw ang nakikita niya sa friendster ko, masayang-masaya daw ang buhay ko, and so on and so fort. He even mentioned my bed, na baka kung sino sino na daw. I told him that (and this is the truth) he was the last guy I had sex with sa kama ko. (I'm sure he doesn't believe but TL won't force him to)

What I don't get is that he always feels bad about himself whenever he sees someone new in my life (kahit sa picture lang niya nakikita). Even before, ganyan na siya. Minamaliit niya masyado ang sarili niya. Kinakain siya nang self-esteem niya. Hay! He never listen to me. As if I'm the most attractive guy in the world. Ngerks! Ewan ko ba.

Also, nagreminisce kami because last year, December 19, 2007, my feet got landed in Mindanao for the first time and the guy responsible for this was him. He's from Mindanao btw, a true-blue muslim (my first non-christian bf). He brought me to Cagayan De Oro, Butuan, Camiguin, Davao and Samal Island. My greatest vacation after arriving from States. A non-stop adventure and trips that we did that I am sure no one can really forget. And this was the reason why I fell in love with him. He really took care of me and proved how he can go far with his feelings towards me at that time.

We both like hitting the beach. And we also love travelling. Kaya sobra kaming magkasundo. We went to Boracay and Puerto Gallera last summer, and naka-attend pa siya nag birhday ko at nang birthday din ni mamiko. Alam din sa bahay yung sa amin kaya welcome siya sa house. I learn a lot from him. Ang dami niyang alam. He is 3 years older than me kaya his experience are broader than mine.

Hay, sige na nga, papakita ko na face niya. Ito yung pinaka-cute na picture namin taken sa Boracay:


I was one of those who urged him to move here in manila so we can be together (he actually moved). I was also one of those who encouraged him to pursue his Masters degree in law (which he is actually taking now). He is the one who made me realize that pork is bad for health. He is the one who made me love chicken and beef.

Here are other pictures of us together:

BORACAY

PUERTO GALLERA

But, after the whirlwind romance, I ended our so called relationship after months because of personal reasons which I cannot write it here (kasi baka alam pala niya yung blog site ko, sabihin itsinitsismis ko ang aming nakaraan). In respect of him and what we had na din.

I still have feelings for him which I cannot deny. Love kasi eh. Parang yung kay Pax, up to now, love ko pa rin siya. Pero yung love na nararamdaman ko sa kanila, hindi na ganun kalalim. Siyempre it has got to be for the one I will love presently.

But again, it doesn't mean I'm in love with nathan already. It's too early to tell and to get to that stage. We'll see. But for Murano, I still fancy him. His body, and his kiss. I think, sa lahat nang naka-relasyon ko, sa kanya talaga nawala ang ulirat ko (if you know what I mean). Hehe. Wala akong masabi. He has met my definition of "Satisfaction Guaranteed".

Hay! Even after how many months has passed, even our relationship has ended, I still miss him. Was I cursed by a muslim lover? Nahh. Maybe, no one has surpassed yet what he did to me during those times that we are still in a relationship. Will nathan be able to surpass those? I don't know (malamang you don't know din) so we'll just see...


This was Murano's last text that night:

"It's the true personality of me that lingers in you even if I am the simplest guy that came in to your life.. Basta, wag mo pababayaan sarili mo ha at ingat parati.."